| moving on and moving out |
[May. 23rd, 2008|09:51 pm] |
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things have really turned fast and i don't know how to handle them sometimes. i feel like everyone has turned on me for one stupid mistake i made, never should have gotten this apartment i just thought it would be fun living with my friends it turned out to be one of the biggest mistakes i've ever make in my life. i wish i could run away from everything thats what i want most just to get away from everyone and everything, i don't like the way my life is going and i know this isn't the way things are supposed to be. i just keep telling myself that i'm the bigger person in all of this because i know i am. i can not wait till i move to kalamazoo everything will be new and i just feel like i can start over, i don't like my job anymore and i just feel like a failure here. i'm puting myself under more stress than i can handle and i get myself into such big messes all the time. i just want to simplify my life, have a job i truely enjoy and just be happy. as for right now i guess i'm just going to have to put up with all these people and i always know i have my family to fall back on. as for these people talking shit and making my life hell. grow up seriously. i'm at work to make money and thats it i really could care less to associate with any of you anymore out of work. i like being friendly and having friends at work but i guess there is just too much drama there for me. i guess i just never should have come back to work there. so thats whats going on with me right now, hopefully things start looking up. |
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| its been awihle.... |
[Dec. 10th, 2005|12:50 am] |
| [ | i'm... |
| |  contemplative | ] |
well it really has been a long time for a livejournal post but i figured now is a better time than ever. the year is almost over and its really hard to believe how things hoave changed... i'm had my ups and downs this year for sure... my share of heart aches and breaks. everything always finds a way though and honestly this year has been rough. with school and bayshire and working and just finding me time.it sucks. i miss my friends alot. i was happy today i got to spend time with andrea, britt and john and kevin. i've just been exhausted lately. but i'm trying to stay positive on things cause thats really all ne one can do. but life is just life and it has ups and downs and right now is just a down time and it sucks. |
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